tell me honestly, am i sucha bad person? am i so horrible to deserve all the shit tts happening? god... this past days has been a shithole for me, i suggest u stop reading here and close the window, but if u choose to read on...gd luck... cos i caution u, its not gonna be pretty...
so it all started with me signing up with a new handphone line.... because, according to my sis, topping up my prepaid is too expensive.... so, get me a line, so i was happy larr.... cos got free incoming and all tt stuff... but the deal was tt i still could keep my prepaid number but i hafta like top it up myself lar... so i agreed cos the prepaid one can sms 300 a day to m1.... so okay lar... i dun mind... then, the bill came, 91 bucks... i also got a shock, cos i nv used anything at all.... onli sms and calls and sign up for the byebye ring ring crap... cos it was free wat, or so i thought... then i explain say i nv use, they dun believe... my sis larr... nv read the bill properly, anyhow blame, actually, shes just paying for the registration fee for the podcast, blogging, byebyeringring and some other crap larr.. then i tot the byebyeringring is free larr... turned out is free, but registration must pay, which i didnt noe larr... then, argue argue for two days... then my oldest sis stepped in and talked to us larr... she said she will settle it, but in the end my second sis settled it her way... on one of the fridays, last friday i think... i wanted to bring the hp to the shop to repair. cos cant take fotos... so then i had the v3 also lar.. so i brought both to sch... so like, wth, the shop had to be closed... so nvm, i put the other card in... then on sunday, she took the v3 wanted to use, the realise my card inside... then she scold, say why i must use two... if i dun wan use the line number then shouldnt have signed up larr... but i still using. is i just nv take it out... forgot larr... then i had to give my prepaid.... so nvm, then i give... then i duno, she still not happy... the bill thing still keep bringing up, i want to explain also she dun wanna listen... very stubborn lar, even if shes wrong, she will still lie her way to make it right... so watever... then she got fedup cos she go nag to my mum when my mum was working, then my mum scold her for keep naggin cos she also fedup... so my sis pissed say she wans my hp and my line back... like, practically everything... so nvm, i give, and then i wanted to transfer the fotos from my memory card, but nvm, she took it... sighs... so then, yesterday.... i came home from sch after meeting char for an hour or so after going to the gym... i hope i can go back there... so anyway, my mum came home onli bang the toilet door ask me hurry up... so i tot, oh shit, one way or another, im gonna die... so yar... i came out, then she sat in front of me... ask me, on....wat day ar... erm... wednesday, yar, last wednesday, if i went to parkway with char... then i was like, no? i went to tm... then i ask why? then she said her fren saw us there... i was like, no lar... not me... then she say okay, other days leh? then i was like no nv go parkway in a long time... i dunno why, yesterday like when i lie also no feelings.... but nvm, then she okay, hu is c-h-a-r.... then i was like, charmaine lar... same... then she was like, oh, wat kind of msgs to u send her huh... u noe u can go to court for sending msgs... then i was like no? u onli go court if u do something wrong! then she keep talking nonsense larr... bitch... talk talk talk, then my sis come and shoot me... then i just say back larr.. then my sis say this is why she take the fone, im very rude... but all i asked was why. why suddenly talk like tt... then i rmbed i forgot to delete the msgs in my hp when i passed it to my sis... then i think think... then i realised my sis was blackmailing me cos watever she take also i just give without making much noise, so she wan make more damage larr... so go show my mum the msgs... then after tt talk then the conclusion was tt char is just a fren larr.. im just talking nicely to her... then i said i talk to other girls like tt too lar... not onli her, just a coincidence tt its her... but obviously its true larr.... then my sis not happy, cos my mum scolded her also cos i shoot her back... so she went out the living room... then my mum also went out... then i heard them talking... then, my mum suddenly shout my name.... then actually, is my sis go show her my frenster... like fuck lar k... i trusted my sis so damn much till i told her some of my secrets... then now she liddat... fuck lar, im not gonna tell her anything anymore lar... im not even gonna talk to her... so yar, back to the story... my mum asked, who is tt... the pictures in my frenster... so i said, char larr.... then she ask, why so close, u noe liddat is molestation... then i was like, huh? then she ask, so she ur girlfren rite... lie to me... then i just....yarrrr! then she just stomped to the kitchen and go take the cane... then she start whacking me everywhere larr... it wasnt exactly pain lar... but i duno why she was so freakin angry... just let her vent larr.. so just let her whack... till now also got the marks... but nvm... im used to being treated like a child, but she forgot i got thick skin... so i didnt really feel much pain.... i was still very calm larr... i onli talk when i feel tt was shes sprouting is total nonsense or is wrong.... and liddat alr she say im answering back... and just before this whole thing onli she say im alr 16 very big boy can take care of myself... then after this onli she say im too young... then she say its illegal, cos shes older than me... then was like. huh? illegal? siao lar... then she say im too young.... pls lar can... sigh... i dunno wat to say larr... i just dunno how to ask her to treat me like a normal parent will treat a normal 16 year old... u noe in australia, 16 years old can do so much things larr... stop controlling me... so whack alr, then she ask me not to talk to char anymore... which is so not gonna happen... i just said okay to make her happy... but i was lying... anyway, then she say i cant meet also... then she say if she catch me, she'll go to char's house and go talk to the mother.. or even whack char... so then after tt she went out, work i think.....
but its like so damn sad larr... ur own sis u trusted so much turned her back on u and stabbed u when u were not looking... i really hate her now... im not gonna accept anything she gives... even a million dollars... she really a mother fucking bitch... she just doesnt noe how much trouble she created... u noe, if char is taken away.... my motivation is taken away, the reason i live would be taken away, hence my life would be taken away.... my happiness would be taken away... my emotions would be taken away.... and if char goes away. i would not love anymore... i'll just live a boring life with no life.... i duno wat to do now... i cant communicate so much, but worse of all, i cant meet or talk... till i end sch... its like, a long way more larr... shes the reason why im improving, and i wanna get into ngee ann... and im gonna work for it, so i can give her wat she deserves... she doesnt deserve any of this shit, so do i... but im so glad tt she is still with me by my side... thanks for tt dear..... and, i hope my sis doesnt find out this blog, if not i'll be screwed even more... so yar.... if u need to contact me, email me, tag my blog or u need it immediately, just call my house... i duno wat im gonna do now... i haf no motivation or mood to study, even to live.... but i hope she still loves me the same way she did and i noe i love her the same way i did... so yar... i hope everything gets back to normal.... somehow....
sighs.... all i wan is a normal life, is tt so hard to get........
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